I Need Him

I’ve found that I need God every day for very reason. I need Him when I’m scared, when I sit down to eat and wonder if it will make my stomach upset again. I need Him when I lie down in my bed and wonder if I’ll wake up in the night alone, when feeling bad and not wanting to wake anyone up but wanting someone with me. I find I need Him when I’m sitting in the living room and see an actor I like and know they are probably on their way to hell. I need Him when I write. I need Him when I stare at the paper and wonder how I can possibly make a drawing pop forth. I need Him when I read. I need Him when I do my school. I need Him when I knit or crochet. I need Him when I slip on the ice. I need Him when I’m just feeling overwhelmed. I need His comfort. I need His love. I need to know I’m forgiven. I need to remember His presence. I just need Him.

I guess that is why it is so hard for me to understand why people would fall away from Him. Because I need Him every moment and if there was a single minute a day that I had to go on radio silence with Him I don’t think I could. Every single day a million and two things happen to me and for all of them I need Him. I want Him. I want to be with Him. I want to feel the comfort His presence brings. I guess the more we need Him, the closer we are to Him. We just have to remember because so often we forget and then we fall away. And if we fall away…we find ourselves drowning.

To find myself alone,
I can’t remember that I’ve flown,
I feel my wings give way,
And I fall from the light of day.

As the darkness sinks in,
I remember there is more than sin,
But I can’t remember how,
To find your throne or bow.

And then I see Your light,
As You reach through the dark,
As if You don’t remember,
How I failed to stay on mark.

I know then that You love me,
That You always, always will,
That no matter what You’ll be here,
Just like I know you climbed the hill.

You put your arms around me,
Tell me its okay,
I know that I’m forgiven,
And I need You every day.

So when I start to sink,
I’ll remember to look up,
For You’ll be standing there,
In perfect, wonderful love.



Don’t sink, remember Him always.

Mandy