Thoughts on Prayer

I have strong opinions which I don’t mind sharing and defending but I’m also open to other’s ideas. I can’t always be right and I don’t know everything.

I don’t try to hide who I am, what I want and what needs changed. Maybe I’m sometimes too honest about my faults and I see people looking at me as if I’m strange. Well, I don’t mind them calling me so but do it to my face so I can say this back, “Yes, I am strange. I’m a square in a round world and this is why: I believe in God and I know He believes in me and in doing so I can be myself and he’ll change what needs changed.”

I believe in dreams as long as those dreams are for God and God alone. Yes, one of my faults is sometimes looking at my work and taking pride in it. I often have to remind myself that God gave my that talent. It’s easier when I sit down to write a character that a friend requested and wonder how in the world I could do it. Then I’ve got to pray hard, very, very hard, for Him to give me the talent to do it right. I often do this when I draw as well. I pray practically the whole time I draw. I pray HARD and over and over and over. If I don’t, I see the difference. My drawings are flat, lifeless, like a scribble of a five year old.

I find I pray for everything. I pray for the knots in my string as I sew to end up in the same place. I pray for the right words every time I speak to someone. I pray for my cakes to turn out alright. I pray that the sun will shine. I pray there will be a pretty sunset. I pray for so many things and most of them are small prayers but God loves them. He enjoys hearing me ask for things.

Then I pray for people. I try to pray for one person but I can’t. I feel as though I’m favoring that person and then I end up praying for their families, friends and anyone and everyone they have ever mentioned. Then I think of someone else and I then pray for them and their families and on and on.

I don’t only pray for people I know. I pray for actors of TV shows I watch. I pray for people someone mentioned two years ago just because I can and I pray for people on things like Wheel of Fortune and American Idol.

So, praying for me is a very serious thing. I pray because I can and because I want to and because I want more than anything to help people and it’s the only way I know how right now. So, I pray.

There are plenty of things about me that are wrong and need changed so I pray for myself. I pray to be changed.

I pray my books please Him. I pray for Him to be close and to comfort me. I simply pray to feel closer.

I pray just because I can and just because I want to. How long has it been since you prayed?
Mandy.